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Saturday, April 9, 2011
No Such Thing As Conditional Love
“My friends, the Father’s conditional love does not exist. Let me say that again the Father’s conditional love does not exist. The imperfect Cross does not exist. The salvation that you’re working and striving and judging others for does not exist. It was finished at the Cross, and it is finished at the Cross. It is finished! I’m the kid of the corner. I’m the kid on the outside camp. I’m the kid who can’t fit in. I’m the broken. I’m the loser. I’m the outsider. Christ died for me.”
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Tumblr
So I created a Tumblr account. I'll probably move the stuff I wrote on here there, and new posts will be put on both Blogger and Tumblr. So feel free to follow me there too, link is under here:
http://lightinthedark0405.tumblr.com/
http://lightinthedark0405.tumblr.com/
Monday, March 14, 2011
God > Tsunami
Great guy's from Japan, playing at church after this whole disaster. Prayers go out to all of you there. God Bless.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
I Seem to Do This All the Time...
God I messed it up again, I seem to do this all the time
Can you forgive me one again, or have I finally crossed the line?
They say Your grace is always with me and You're near me all the time
If that's the case I pray sincerely that Your love is truly blind
The people on the outside watching me follow the crowd, find a way out
You know something on the inside's pushing me without a doubt
So I'm letting it go
I'm never always right and it's plain to see
You love me Jesus, It's a mystery
You know my faults, You know my wrongs
And You still love me
God I know that you exist, I've been told a thousand times
But my friends they all insist that the turth is just a lie
You see the lives that they all live seems like a party all the time
The temptations I resist, because it's You I glorify
Let everything that I do or say reflect You in every way
You way
When I first heard this song...well I just couldn't believe how much I could relate to this song...It's one of my favorites because this song apply's to a lot of parts/moments of my life...
Can you forgive me one again, or have I finally crossed the line?
They say Your grace is always with me and You're near me all the time
If that's the case I pray sincerely that Your love is truly blind
The people on the outside watching me follow the crowd, find a way out
You know something on the inside's pushing me without a doubt
So I'm letting it go
I'm never always right and it's plain to see
You love me Jesus, It's a mystery
You know my faults, You know my wrongs
And You still love me
God I know that you exist, I've been told a thousand times
But my friends they all insist that the turth is just a lie
You see the lives that they all live seems like a party all the time
The temptations I resist, because it's You I glorify
Let everything that I do or say reflect You in every way
You way
When I first heard this song...well I just couldn't believe how much I could relate to this song...It's one of my favorites because this song apply's to a lot of parts/moments of my life...
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
The Unheard Voices Blowing In the Wind
I've been wanting to get on this and just pour out some of my thoughts but I've been to lazy and I've just been in this apathetic mood these last 2 or 3 weeks. So many things I want to talk about, so here is the first of the few of my thoughts that popped into my head these past few days.
So one day, I was doing a scavenger hunt at school. My partner and I were running everywhere to get pictures of the things on our list. 1 of the items was a picture of a cartwheel. Neither of us wanted to do it so I decided to roam around to find someone to do the cartwheel. We run into this cute girl that neither of us had never seen, knowing that she'd refuse I asked anyways. After making up an excuse(her ankle was "messed up") we parted ways and went off in search of someone else. My friend ended up doing the cartwheel, I recorded it on his phone and we tied with another team.
The following day, I see that same girl at lunch. I don't know if it's just me or if it happens to other people, but whenever I meet someone new or just talk to them randomly they just tend to appear more in your life. You might see them in a hallway you've always walked by, or in a line for food, or at a vending machine, or just any other place you can think of. Well I've seen her a lot more often now, in fact I was talking to my friend who resembles Never Shout Never while she was sitting on a table to his right.
I started thinking...there must be a lot of people that go unnoticed in not only my life but others as well...people who must be going through hell, who are in pain, who might have their parents going through a divorce, or who are contemplating suicide, etc...this thought of mine scared me, worried me...so many people we walk by during the say and we just walk by them ignoring their existence...
When all they need is a talk, a shoulder to cry on, someone to tell them their is still hope that never fails...
I don't know about you, but I've always wanted to make a difference in someone's life. To give 'em a hope to hold onto, to tell 'em that through the harsh trials of life things are gonna be fine, that this storm in life will go away in time...can't say that if you don't see the necessity in this life. They're like needles in this haystack world, it's our job to go out there and find those needles. To spread that hope, that love, that was given to us from above.
Matthew 25:34-40
"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Enter, you who are blessed by my Father! Take what's coming to you in this kingdom. It's been ready for you since the world's foundation. And here's why:
I was hungry and you fed me,
I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
I was homeless and you gave me a room,
I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
I was sick and you stopped to visit,
I was in prison and you came to me.'
"Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.'
I'm flawed, full of mistakes, a monster, please change me from what I've been into who you need me to be...please open my eyes to the things unseen, please give me your eyes to so I can see everything I've missed, give me a loving heart so I won't be biased, please help me make a difference I don't wanna live for myself, I wanna die knowing I did something. Please...make this change that is so badly needed within me so I can make a difference...
So one day, I was doing a scavenger hunt at school. My partner and I were running everywhere to get pictures of the things on our list. 1 of the items was a picture of a cartwheel. Neither of us wanted to do it so I decided to roam around to find someone to do the cartwheel. We run into this cute girl that neither of us had never seen, knowing that she'd refuse I asked anyways. After making up an excuse(her ankle was "messed up") we parted ways and went off in search of someone else. My friend ended up doing the cartwheel, I recorded it on his phone and we tied with another team.
The following day, I see that same girl at lunch. I don't know if it's just me or if it happens to other people, but whenever I meet someone new or just talk to them randomly they just tend to appear more in your life. You might see them in a hallway you've always walked by, or in a line for food, or at a vending machine, or just any other place you can think of. Well I've seen her a lot more often now, in fact I was talking to my friend who resembles Never Shout Never while she was sitting on a table to his right.
I started thinking...there must be a lot of people that go unnoticed in not only my life but others as well...people who must be going through hell, who are in pain, who might have their parents going through a divorce, or who are contemplating suicide, etc...this thought of mine scared me, worried me...so many people we walk by during the say and we just walk by them ignoring their existence...
When all they need is a talk, a shoulder to cry on, someone to tell them their is still hope that never fails...
I don't know about you, but I've always wanted to make a difference in someone's life. To give 'em a hope to hold onto, to tell 'em that through the harsh trials of life things are gonna be fine, that this storm in life will go away in time...can't say that if you don't see the necessity in this life. They're like needles in this haystack world, it's our job to go out there and find those needles. To spread that hope, that love, that was given to us from above.
Matthew 25:34-40
"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Enter, you who are blessed by my Father! Take what's coming to you in this kingdom. It's been ready for you since the world's foundation. And here's why:
I was hungry and you fed me,
I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
I was homeless and you gave me a room,
I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
I was sick and you stopped to visit,
I was in prison and you came to me.'
"Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.'
I'm flawed, full of mistakes, a monster, please change me from what I've been into who you need me to be...please open my eyes to the things unseen, please give me your eyes to so I can see everything I've missed, give me a loving heart so I won't be biased, please help me make a difference I don't wanna live for myself, I wanna die knowing I did something. Please...make this change that is so badly needed within me so I can make a difference...
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Gone!
I was getting picked up by my mom from school and heading towards my niece's elementary to pick her up from tutoring when this song came up on the radio. This is probably one of my favorite songs in this album...seemed to fit this period of life at this moment...
Yea the problem keeps on calling even with the cellphone gone. I don't wanna say "So long" but it just seems like there's noting else to say...this world is just spinning backwards and upside down...maybe...maybe there is more to living than what I thought...I don't want to fill this void within me with useless things, I don't want to waste my life dreaming and chasing fairy tails...life is short. I wanna spend my life doing something more than myself, I wanna chase something that'll last..and I haven't wanted to chase THAT. It's about time I start. The world's just gonna keep spinning on and on, it's not gonna wait for me to get my head out of the gutters. Gotta not live in the past and reach for that bird named Hope everyday. Even when everything seems to fall apart. I'm on this long journey trying to find myself...to find something that last...to fulfill my propose in this life that was given to me by Him. I'm on a journey to reach home.
I'm nervous...I'm scared...I'm a mess...but I'm hanging on to You.
Yea the problem keeps on calling even with the cellphone gone. I don't wanna say "So long" but it just seems like there's noting else to say...this world is just spinning backwards and upside down...maybe...maybe there is more to living than what I thought...I don't want to fill this void within me with useless things, I don't want to waste my life dreaming and chasing fairy tails...life is short. I wanna spend my life doing something more than myself, I wanna chase something that'll last..and I haven't wanted to chase THAT. It's about time I start. The world's just gonna keep spinning on and on, it's not gonna wait for me to get my head out of the gutters. Gotta not live in the past and reach for that bird named Hope everyday. Even when everything seems to fall apart. I'm on this long journey trying to find myself...to find something that last...to fulfill my propose in this life that was given to me by Him. I'm on a journey to reach home.
I'm nervous...I'm scared...I'm a mess...but I'm hanging on to You.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Retrace the Steps We Took When We Met Worlds Away...
If only things could've been different....I miss the past...I miss the "what could have been...". Now I'm chained to my thoughts again. To be by your side once again...now...I'm just...lost...lonely...depraved...depressed... counting backwards....No one else has ever felt like home like you...I just replay your voice, it's like your here once again...Can't fall asleep knowing I'm all alone...the world seems less populated...every subtle thing screams your name, reminded of the words shared between us...no one can replace you...not you...I just want to go back and change everything...to have met you earlier...but no it's impossible...we're just world's away...I'm here...and your there...all this time I thought what I did was enough...
I kicked myself out of your life. I hope you understand. It's painful to stay and know what's going on...it's more painful to leave knowing I betrayed my word to you...I'm sorry...wish there could have been something in the future...I don't regret any of the words I said to you...yea your worth it. I hope you find the happiness you we're looking for...
“Tears are words the heart can't express”
“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on....” - David Harkin
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on....” - David Harkin
“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”
“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart..I'll always be with you.” – Winnie the Pooh
I'm glad you came into my life...maybe...maybe things change....maybe there is some hope for you and me....maybe...cuz the story ain't over...no...we still got breath in our lungs...song's not over yet... but maybe that's just my optimism...
...I'll just replay those words you once said over the phone...even now...I smile...I replay your words in my mind...you moved the Earth around me...but now stars are falling...
...I'll just replay those words you once said over the phone...even now...I smile...I replay your words in my mind...you moved the Earth around me...but now stars are falling...
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
The Broken Heart, the Deprivation, and Hope
Sorry that I've like not written in a while. So this post is for all my peeps that like to read my stuff...even though I only have like 1 follower lol....ya never know what God will do to talk to you, just like I ran into a random girl in LOBH and read her post on this site and I knew God somehow got me to read a post that I really needed to read...so here's to anyone who no longer has a best friend....
I lost a best friend. No I don't mean they died. I mean I just don't have one anymore...again...Me and her were really close...we cared about each other in a more than just friend way...now...I'm left in the dirt while she is finally happy with someone else...It hurts, ya know. Losing someone you cared so much, after so many words were shared, after secrets no one else could know where shared...It takes a long time to build a friendship, to trust, to love one another...and it only takes so little for it to shatter. I'm hurt, angry...not so much at her, but at myself...the feeling of loneliness is depressing...I was head over heels...she was everything I loved, not your average girl. The flower and the thorn. The flaws didn't keep me away. In this life you were the feeling of belonging, all that was fair in love and war.
"When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal." - Author Unknown
I think the whole long distance thing wouldn't have worked out anyways...but it was something I was willing to fight for. I don't regret telling her how I felt that night...I did it for what I believe is a good reason...I didn't wanted her to be used by some guy...after all that's what a best friend does...looks out after you...but no my feelings weren't enough...
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." - Lamartine
I've have a bunch of "friends". On Facebook I have 264...only maybe...like.... 5% are actually somewhat real friends. Probably not even 5%, probably like 2%. All I've ever really wanted was a real friend, a best friend that wouldn't vanish over time...I've been searching...felt like giving up till she came along...now...it's back to searching...I'll find them...the real true friends...I know there out there...they're the needles in this haystack world...
Maybe God...maybe...he wanted me to let go of her...maybe...he has a whole different plan for what I envisioned having with her...I hope so...maybe there is someone coming...maybe that girl I dreamt of is still on her way coming to turn my world right side up...sent by Him? Maybe I'm just a dummy right now because of my emotions and I'm just saying things to try and cheer me up...but I do believe God has something better in store for me...that this feeling of lonesomeness will finally go away...that a real friend...real friends...sent by God for me will come around and stick like crazy glue...that I'll be head over heels again...
"A heartbreak is a blessing from God. It's just his way of letting you realize he saved you from the wrong one." - Author Unknown
Yea the skies may turn blood red, but I'll sing in the eye of the storm cuz my love can't be silenced. Yea the storm around me will pass, there might be destruction all around me but relief will come to me. All your dead end fury is not enough!
I lost a best friend. No I don't mean they died. I mean I just don't have one anymore...again...Me and her were really close...we cared about each other in a more than just friend way...now...I'm left in the dirt while she is finally happy with someone else...It hurts, ya know. Losing someone you cared so much, after so many words were shared, after secrets no one else could know where shared...It takes a long time to build a friendship, to trust, to love one another...and it only takes so little for it to shatter. I'm hurt, angry...not so much at her, but at myself...the feeling of loneliness is depressing...I was head over heels...she was everything I loved, not your average girl. The flower and the thorn. The flaws didn't keep me away. In this life you were the feeling of belonging, all that was fair in love and war.
"When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze into heaven for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal." - Author Unknown
I think the whole long distance thing wouldn't have worked out anyways...but it was something I was willing to fight for. I don't regret telling her how I felt that night...I did it for what I believe is a good reason...I didn't wanted her to be used by some guy...after all that's what a best friend does...looks out after you...but no my feelings weren't enough...
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." - Lamartine
I've have a bunch of "friends". On Facebook I have 264...only maybe...like.... 5% are actually somewhat real friends. Probably not even 5%, probably like 2%. All I've ever really wanted was a real friend, a best friend that wouldn't vanish over time...I've been searching...felt like giving up till she came along...now...it's back to searching...I'll find them...the real true friends...I know there out there...they're the needles in this haystack world...
Maybe God...maybe...he wanted me to let go of her...maybe...he has a whole different plan for what I envisioned having with her...I hope so...maybe there is someone coming...maybe that girl I dreamt of is still on her way coming to turn my world right side up...sent by Him? Maybe I'm just a dummy right now because of my emotions and I'm just saying things to try and cheer me up...but I do believe God has something better in store for me...that this feeling of lonesomeness will finally go away...that a real friend...real friends...sent by God for me will come around and stick like crazy glue...that I'll be head over heels again...
"A heartbreak is a blessing from God. It's just his way of letting you realize he saved you from the wrong one." - Author Unknown
Yea the skies may turn blood red, but I'll sing in the eye of the storm cuz my love can't be silenced. Yea the storm around me will pass, there might be destruction all around me but relief will come to me. All your dead end fury is not enough!
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