Why Life and Love and Why?

"Life and Love and Why" It's by Switchfoot. I honestly wanted to come up with this super awesome cool name for this blog so I literally sat down for like a billion hours trying to think of something. I sat down and decided to listen to music...I'm like a Switchfoot addict...In fact I'm listening to the album "The Legend of Chin"....haha anyways...I sat down and played all their songs. Including one's that were never released (like: The Story of A Man Named Pride, or Mercy's War) See I'm like addicted...hahaha anyways back on topic...so as I was saying I was listening to them as I tried to come up with a name when 'Life and Love and Why' come up. I thought it would fit perfectly with this blog so I named it after the song. 

Lyrics: 

Life and love and why 
Child adult then die 
All of your hoping and all of your searching for what?
Ask me for what am I living and what gives me strength that i'm willing to die for 

Take away from me this monstrosity 
'Cause my futile thinking's not gonna solve nothing tonight 
Ask me for what am I living and what gives me strength that I'm willing to die for 

Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Could it be all that I ever had missed?
Could it be true?
Can life be new?
And can I be used?
Can I be used?

Give me a reason for life and for death 
And a reason for drowning while I hold my breath 
Something to laugh at a reason to cry 
With everyone hopeless and hoping for something to hope for 
Yeah, with something to hope for 

Could it be true?
Can life be new?
Could it be all that I am is in You?
Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Can it be You?
Can it be You? 

Why are we here? What's the meaning to life? Can you God be the one thing that fulfills me? To give me a purpose, a meaning? Are you the answer to life? Love? The answer to why everything seems to crumble away and fall apart? can I be made new despite the monstrosity I am? Can it be You, not me not anything this world has to offer? Can it be You? 

"Then Jesus turned to his disciples: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?" Matthew 16: 24-26  

We are found in him. We're give a reason to live and to die. He'll makes us new. He is the hope that shines brightly in the darkness.  We'll just lose ourselves if we try to satisfy ourselves with what this world has to offer us. He is the answer to life, to love, to why everything happens the way it happens. We're hopeless people looking for hope in all the places where there is no hope when along all that we need is You! You are the answer to all. It's not in us, it's in You and placed in us by You. You give us peace when we're in the eye of the hurricane. You give us hope, love, a place to call home. Your love is strong, it's a song that makes a melody out of the song we'veforgotten. It will always be You and we'll always be yours.

Lost Signal?

“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” - Gandhi

Prayer. A part in my life that I am trying to improve. Praying to God when I wake up thanking him for another day of life that he has so willingly given to someone like me. Praying for forgiveness for the wrongs I commit daily. Praying to be guided down the right path. Praying for His love to be strong through the thunder clouds around me. All this in a 5 or so minute prayer. So little time that I give. 

I was on the site "Land of Broken Hearts" reading the latest post on my all time favorite band that just manages to connect to me in the majority of their songs; while reading i scrolled down to read any comments. I found one by this girl and it was the very first one I believe. I don't know why but I felt this need to click on her name that lead to a link. It lead to her blog on this site. As I read it...it was...captivating...It was about prayer..how we need to have that 1-on-1 with the Big Man. I was just giving the Big Man that on the go prayer and not taking some of my time to actually talk to him about everything that bothers me. I was always saying to myself how I would eventually get around to having that 1-on-1. I kept postponing that, letting other things get in the way...

I no longer wanted to postpone that 1-on1....I used to give an hour or more to him...I was on fire once...on fire....and I let so many things get in the way....from time to time I would give more than just 5 mins...but only when I was so in need...I was wrong to do that in just those moments...I had begun to doubt...to walk away from the eternal life that was promised to me...I threw it all away...and yet even now...He had just called me and told me to come back, that he'd forgive me....even when I was unfaithful to him he was leading me back....

"Hear, O Lord, my righteous plea; listen to my cry. Give ear to my prayer...." Pslam 17:1

I didn't pray right away..,I decided to listen to my all time favorite band...Home by Switchfoot...I just was overcome with this need to talk to him and have that 1-on-1 right away..so I did..although...it was 5 mins...I was interrupted and I lost the will to pray. Honestly I was. After that I had to leave the sanctuary of my room to take care of the tasks at hand. Now I'm back. I've set myself a task to return to that place, the place where everything is made right, the place where I can have my 1-on-1 with the Big Man. I think we all come across this point in our life. Where we just stop with the communication with Him. Whatever it may have been that kept us from that 1-on-1 we end up just losing that communication, we're in an area in our life where there is no reception no full bars just a lost signal. We're lost without him. We need to call him to be find our way. To find our way out of this world that doesn't hold our interests, our hearts, our life, our soul.  So now...I'm gonna end this hear...and I'm gonna give him that call...and have that 1-on-1 that is so desperately needed in me. 


"Grant that I may not pray alone with the mouth; help me that I may pray from the depths of my heart" - Martin Luther