Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Unheard Voices Blowing In the Wind

I've been wanting to get on this and just pour out some of my thoughts but I've been to lazy and I've just been in this apathetic mood these last 2 or 3 weeks. So many things I want to talk about, so here is the first of the few of my thoughts that popped into my head these past few days.

So one day, I was doing a scavenger hunt at school. My partner and I were running everywhere to get pictures of the things on our list. 1 of the items was a picture of a cartwheel. Neither of us wanted to do it so I decided to roam around to find someone to do the cartwheel. We run into this cute girl that neither of us had never seen, knowing that she'd refuse I asked anyways. After making up an excuse(her ankle was "messed up") we parted ways and went off in search of someone else. My friend ended up doing the cartwheel, I recorded it on his phone and we tied with another team.

The following day, I see that same girl at lunch. I don't know if it's just me or if it happens to other people, but whenever I meet someone new or just talk to them randomly they just tend to appear more in your life. You might see them in a hallway you've always walked by, or in a line for food, or at a vending machine, or just any other place you can think of. Well I've seen her a lot more often now, in fact I was talking to my friend who resembles Never Shout Never while she was sitting on a table to his right.

I started thinking...there must be a lot of people that go unnoticed in not only my life but others as well...people who must be going through hell, who are in pain, who might have their parents going through a divorce, or who are contemplating suicide, etc...this thought of mine scared me, worried me...so many people we walk by during the say and we just walk by them ignoring their existence...

When all they need is a talk, a shoulder to cry on, someone to tell them their is still hope that never fails...

I don't know about you, but I've always wanted to make a difference in someone's life. To give 'em a hope to hold onto, to tell 'em that through the harsh trials of life things are gonna be fine, that this storm in life will go away in time...can't say that if you don't see the necessity in this life. They're like needles in this haystack world, it's our job to go out there and find those needles. To spread that hope, that love, that was given to us from above.


Matthew 25:34-40

"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Enter, you who are blessed by my Father! Take what's coming to you in this kingdom. It's been ready for you since the world's foundation. And here's why:
   I was hungry and you fed me,
   I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
   I was homeless and you gave me a room,
   I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
   I was sick and you stopped to visit,
   I was in prison and you came to me.'

"Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.'


I'm flawed, full of mistakes, a monster, please change me from what I've been into who you need me to be...please open my eyes to the things unseen, please give me your eyes to so I can see everything I've missed, give me a loving heart so I won't be biased, please help me make a difference I don't wanna live for myself, I wanna die knowing I did something. Please...make this change that is so badly needed within me so I can make a difference...

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Gone!

I was getting picked up by my mom from school and heading towards my niece's elementary to pick her up from tutoring when this song came up on the radio. This is probably one of my favorite songs in this album...seemed to fit this period of life at this moment...

Yea the problem keeps on calling even with the cellphone gone. I don't wanna say "So long" but it just seems like there's noting else to say...this world is just spinning backwards and upside down...maybe...maybe there is more to living than what I thought...I don't want to fill this void within me with useless things, I don't want to waste my life dreaming and chasing fairy tails...life is short. I wanna spend my life doing something more than myself, I wanna chase something that'll last..and I haven't wanted to chase THAT. It's about time I start. The world's just gonna keep spinning on and on, it's not gonna wait for me to get my head out of the gutters. Gotta not live in the past and reach for that bird named Hope everyday. Even when everything seems to fall apart. I'm on this long journey trying to find myself...to find something that last...to fulfill my propose in this life that was given to me by Him. I'm on a journey to reach home.

I'm nervous...I'm scared...I'm a mess...but I'm hanging on to You.